JONIZZLE

- I really REALLY love all of my JH campers. You all need to IM me and tell me what youre doing. It would make me immensely happy. like THIIIIIIISSSS happy. Yea, its good for my soul.

- Can anyone explain what Laguna Beach is? Is it like a high school Real World or a scripted show?

- Its getting cooold outside! I enjoy it now, but I wont in a few weeks.

- EuropeEuropeEurope!

- I saw an Apple desktop computer tonight, and I was like whoa. It had a really big monitor and I was actually mesmerized by the Pictures Screensaver. It would fade in and out and zoom in and out of pictures, which was a really classy effect. I initially wanted to buy an Apple just for that, but I came home and found a PC version of the screesaver here, and so all I need now is a big monitor. I dont need an Apple. Puaha.

- I've pretty much listened to this song for a whole year, usually before I go to sleep. It's crazy that I've actually listened to it roughly 365 times, because its nearly 10 minutes long, so that means I've spent 3,650 minutes listening to it, which translates into about 60 hours, or almost THREE FULL DAYS. Here are the lyrics:

I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand all the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big dreams
It's always you
In my big dreams

And you tell me that it's over
Wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover
And your restless, and I'm naked
You've gotta get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
No
Could you let me go?
I didn't think so

And you don't wanna be here in the future
So you say the present's just a pleasent interruption to the past
And you don't wanna look much closer
Cuz your afraid to find out all this hope
You had sent into the sky by now had crashed
And it did
Because of me

And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone
And I'm sleeping in your living room
We don't have much room to live

I had these dreams that I learned to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rock star
And there was hope in me that I could take you there
But dammit you're so young
Well I don't think i care
And if I hurt you
Then I'm sorry
Please don't think that this was easy

Then you bring me home
Cuz we both know what it's like to be alone
And I'm dreaming in your living room
We don't have much room to live

And Konstantine is walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear
And I was thinking
What I was thinking
We've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere

My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do is touch her long blonde hair
And I've been thinking
It hurts me thinking that these nights
When we were drinking no they never got us anywhere
No

This is because I can spell konfusion with a k
And I like it
It's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it
It's to Jimmy Eat World and those nights in my car
When the first star you see may not be a star
I'm not your star
Isn't that what you said
What you thought this song meant

And if this is what it takes
Just to lie in my mistakes
And live with what i did to you
And all the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock
It's 11:11
And now you want to talk
It's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine

Konstantine, they'll never hurt you like I do
No they'll never hurt you like I do
No, no, no no no no no no

This is to a girl who got into my head
With all the pretty things she did
Hey
You know
You keep me up in bed
This is to a girl who got into my head
With all the f*cked up things I did
Hey
Maybe
Baby
You could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine
Spin round me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
I miss you

And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep, but this time, not alone, no no
And you'll kiss me in your living room
I know
You'll miss me in your living room
Cuz these nights I think maybe that I'll miss you in my living room
We don't have much room
I said does anybody need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live

My Konstantine


I doubt anyone read all that, but I felt like posting the lyrics anyways since it's what, in my mind, a song should be. And its BEAUTIFUL. Something Corporate - Konstantine. This is the millionth time I've mentioned it, so if you haven't, you really should get it. It is quite the depressing song, although in my case, it can remind me of happier times. But it still mellows me out low. Maybe I should you know, stop listening, and let go of a little bit of it all, all that I think and feel. Maybe...sigh.

I don't like letting go.

Im going to sit and watch my screensaver now.