JONIZZLE

Sunday, June 22nd. yea.

I guess im being strong, but i dont want to be. i want to be weak and frail and hold on. but i shouldnt. so i have to be strong. its for the best. yes? i pray that it is. i pray i dont regret this, unlike my actions...or lack thereof...3 years ago. but as they say in Rent, forget regret, for life is yours to miss. but i cant help it. im missing out on life. which is why i have to help it. which is why i have to be strong.

i ate too much at dinner. appetizer platter and a breakfast meal. one n jen didnt feel like going inside, so she called me to go get grub. brian came along. lori was working. it was a good time. the food counteracted with what i did earlier when i was "strong". yea. sure.

itll be a long road. a long journey. and it will take some times. hopefully it will work. well actually, i hope it wont. i hope there would be another way for this to all come to a conclusion. i hope id get the girl. but it doesnt seem that way.

so time to change focus and switch gears. work tomorrow, bright and early. i love my job. tac is in...uh...2 weeks...what the dilly. and hey, taf in like 6. whoa. taf in 6 weeks...

i cant wait. ill need to stay strong, at least till then.