Bits & pieces.

- I've had a heavy heart and a thrilled soul the past few days. But then at the same time, I have been convering two jobs, so the body is almost too tired to remember. but yea, a heavy heart, and a very happy one as well, all at the same time.

- Filmed at Disneyland today. To gain entrance into their parking structure, I had to tell the guard a security code. The security code was "Captain Jack". No joke.

- I was thinking tonight about things, and I remember how B once touched upon leaving yourself outs in life, much like in poker. But then again sometimes you have to go all-in. I just think there are some good life lessons to be learned from Texas Hold-Em.

- I usually only listened to The Scientist and Clocks and a little Politik, but I never truely realized how good the rest of the album is/was.

- A long time ago I realized that its sad how often we as people can never really know someone, even if you think you're close. Angie brought it up tonight again. Kinda sucks, yea? It kinda just makes me want to hug people, just for that one singular moment.

- I am very, very, very tired. With a heavy heart and a happy heart. What a week, and it's just now halfway over.

i recently got sick with a sinus infection because i was cleaning my ears too much with that asian wood stick thingy. (this generaly produces a laughing response from whoever i tell). yes, i love the wooden ear cleaning stick, and in fact i wish my body produced more ear wax so i would have more to clean, but alas, i do not even know the proper name for it.

but thanks to karen and the internet!

"Ear picks (Chinese:

; pinyin: er sháo; Dutch: wattenstaafje; Japanese:


, mimikaki), also called ear scoops or auriscalpium."

and from Wikipedia:

"Embellishments - Down puff: A ball or "puff" of goose down is located at the opposite end of the ear pick away from the tip. This is used to clean out tiny specks of flaky ear wax that may have broken off during the process of ear cleaning." (I never knew thats what it was for! AND ITS SO MUCH SOFTER THAN A QTIP!!)

AND:

"Ear picks are a commonly used item and preferred for ear wax removal in East Asia. The person having their ears cleaned would lie down with their head in the lap of the person doing the cleaning. It is generally considered a pleasant feeling, like having one's back scratched. The cleaning of ears is thus considered an act of intimacy, often performed by a mother to a child or, among adults, by one's lover."

YES. MY LOVER IS TOTALLY GOING TO DO THAT TO ME.

This has long since been my favorite sports video. My version now sits on a hard drive on my old computer collecting dust back in Springfield. So thanks youtube.

I'm in Dallas now, here for the Taiwanese North American Chamber of Commerce conference. Tonight was the closing banquet. The Dallas Cowboy cheerleaders performed. Jerry Jones walked around. And remember, this conference is dominated by first-generation Taiwanese American moms and dads.

Anyways, Dallas is a lovely city. I probably feel that way because there was a lovely girl in the Taiwanese Young Professional TCOC. I tried talking to her a few times. But then tonight, I noticed a ring on her finger, and realized she was engaged/married. Hah. Sadface. But alas, a lovely lady she still is.

Off to Houston tomorrow!

I see pictures of a loved one and feel a rush of blood to the chest. A smile and some warmth, a laugh and a sparkle. Heart of stone heart of stone, or heart of caring and compassion. A heart that gives more than it takes. They call it the wellspring of life, and yes, it is. But for whom does it serve? Is yours your own wellspring? Or perhaps it is for others, for your family, for your friends, for the world, for God. Quench other's thirsts with your heart I should say, but I fear, if one does that, then their hearts become stone. So how do we keep the wellspring flowing. Well for me, I will pray. Pray that I can open up my heart, and that I will find love to give, more than to recieve. And that the waters will always flow, and that everyone and everything around me will refreshed and renewed. Because that heart of stone...few things scare me more than having that heart of stone.

Here's the Albert Hammond Jr. music video I worked on a few months ago with Karen Lin.



It's always interesting to see how the final product turns out, because it is hard to always tell when you're actually on set and watching it being filmed. Scenes are recorded out of the final order, and you don't know what the actual shot is unless your watching a monitor. Also, I think the part with the Jesus wall painting and W.W.J.D bumper sticker was unplanned. I didn't hear about it or read it in the music video's pre-production treatment. But whatevs, it seems to have worked out well.

Page one of the San Jose Mercury News. Word.

Focus on dark past

TAIWANESE FUND CONTROVERSIAL FILM ON SPYING ERA IN U.S.

Will Tiao is pitching Silicon Valley a different kind of business plan -- one full of international espionage and even murder.

Sound like a Hollywood movie? Well, it is, but one based on real events that pitted the dictatorial Taiwanese government of the time against those suspected of leading the democratic movement in Taiwan and the United States.

Bay Area Taiwanese-Americans in recent months have invested and pledged millions of dollars to see the film made. In February, Tiao appealed to Silicon Valley's influential Taiwanese American Industrial and Technology Association for funding.

The project has stirred the political passions of Taiwanese-Americans, some of whom say they were spied upon by their government after moving to the United States decades ago when Taiwan was ruled by martial law.

Tiao's perspective on the little-known chapter in Taiwan's history has received significant coverage in the Taiwanese and Chinese press in the United States, made a big media splash in Taiwan and has created controversy as some accuse it of being made to sway Taiwan's 2008 presidential election in favor of the Democratic Progressive Party, or DPP, and its associated coalitions.

Not bad for a movie that has yet to have a single scene shot. Filming is scheduled to begin later this year.

U.S. involvement

The plot of the murder of a college professor is set during a painful chapter in Taiwanese history, a time when native Taiwanese and those leading the democratic movement felt persecuted by the Taipei government, a close U.S. ally because of its anti-communist stance.

``This is not an Asian-American identity movie,'' said Tiao, who has sought support from more than 10,000 Taiwanese, Taiwanese-Americans and Taiwanese-Canadians. ``This is aimed at mainstream America.''

For many Taiwanese-Americans, the project has struck a deep chord.

``We want people in America to know Taiwan's story,'' said Helen Lee, who teaches voice at the University of Nevada-Reno. Lee is one of a small army of investors backing the project. The minimum investment is $25,000.

Ho Chie Tsai, a 35-year-old Berkeley pediatrician, wanted to support a project that speaks to the Asian community. ``I've never seen this level of excitement in my community,'' he added.

Right now, the movie's estimated budget is in the $10 million to $12 million range, but that could change upward depending on fundraising successes or a partnership with another film production company. Kansas-born Tiao was an aide to former U.S. Sen. Nancy Kassebaum before becoming a fledgling actor and producer in Hollywood. The movie -- the working title is ``Formosa Betrayed'' (www. formosabetrayed.com) -- will attempt to distill Taiwan's complex politics.

Power shake-up

In 1949, Mao Tse-tung's communist forces conquered mainland China. The defeated Chiang Kai-shek and his Kuomintang, or Nationalist, party fled to Taiwan, where they ruled as a government-in-exile.

In 1996, the first direct presidential election was held. In 2000, the opposition DPP won the presidency. The party in large part draws support from native Taiwanese, whose ancestors arrived in Taiwan between 1600 and 1900. The DPP leans toward independence from China, whereas the Kuomintang, or KMT, has a more conciliatory posture.

China claims Taiwan is its territory and has threatened war should the island officially declare independence. The United States, which does not officially recognize Taiwan as an independent nation, has called for a peaceful resolution.

Taiwan's period of martial law spilled over to the United States as the Taiwanese government recruited students to spy on Taiwanese-American professors and others on college campuses. Tiao's script tells the story of a fictional character who is a composite of two real-life personalities.

One was Chen Wen-cheng, a Carnegie Mellon University professor and critic of Taiwan's government who died under suspicious circumstances during a visit to Taiwan in 1981. The other was Chinese-American journalist Henry Liu, killed in 1984 after writing an unflattering biography of Taiwan's strong-arm ruler, Chiang Ching-kuo, the son of Chiang Kai-shek. The killing occurred at Liu's Daly City home and was linked to a Taiwan intelligence agent, though the Taiwan government denied involvement.

The movie's story line, Tiao said, follows a detective who, while investigating the murder, begins to realize ``people are spying on each other.'' The cop eventually links the killing to Taiwan, even as U.S. government officials try to steer him away from Taipei.

``Many Taiwanese paid a high price for democracy,'' observed Taiwan scholar Shelley Rigger.

Tiao said his movie is not intended to be partisan. ``Basically, it has to do with oppression,'' explained the producer, who said his parents warned him when he was growing up in the Midwest to hang up the phone should any caller speak in Chinese. His father, an agricultural economics professor at Kansas State University who immigrated from Taiwan in 1968, was spied upon, Tiao said.

Still, the project is seen differently by others. ``It's political propaganda,'' said James Chung, executive director of a coalition of Taiwanese political parties in the Bay Area, including the KMT. ``DPP will use this film to attack the KMT.''

Film's message

For supporters, ``Formosa Betrayed'' is an opportunity to finally air their struggles.

``We never had a chance to speak out, we never had a chance to let people know what the real history of Taiwan was,'' Gina Mao said. The 49-year-old Hillsborough resident invested in the movie and organized a half-dozen meetings for other potential backers, including a dinner for 300.

Sui Hwu, 53, who has retired from her Sunnyvale land development and construction company, invested in the project because she was moved by Tiao's concern for Taiwan. ``I was so touched,'' she said, fighting back tears.

It will, though, take equal measures of financing and luck just to get the movie made, let alone get wide distribution. Independently produced movies, in particular, face difficult odds in Hollywood, observed Larry Tanz, chief executive of LivePlanet, the production company founded by Matt Damon and Ben Affleck.

For example, he said, thousands of independent movies are submitted to the Sundance Film Festival every year. ``Dozens make it, a handful win and only a couple or a few will get wide theatrical distribution,'' said Tanz, producer on the Emmy-nominated series ``Project Greenlight'' and upcoming feature film ``Running the Sahara.''

Nonetheless, he added, relatively low-budget movies can light up the big screen.

``If it's a great screenplay and a great story,'' Tanz said, ``the sky is the limit.''