JONIZZLE

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Ocelot Onslaught 1-0 after Week 1 with a 42-0 victory in UIUC Flag Football.

i am warren sapp. i got a sack. haha yea...

ouch. sad. tear.

from elliots xanga, i read that this girl he knows passed away today/last night. and there was the link to her xanga.

that gets to me, even though i never knew the girl at all. reading the thoughts and life of someone who has died, its a weird weird thing. she posted yesterday too. pictures of friends and family. its sad man. and then people comment on it telling her they will miss her and all of that. its like an eternal (as eternal as xanga will be) book of people wishing you goodbye and how they miss you and all that. i find that part cool. incredibly cool for some reason. but at the same time incredibly sad to see people say goodbye for real. forever.

i think this just makes online journals that much more personable? and connecting? or something. i wish everyone had a blogger/xanga. i wish everyone could share their lives (or to whatever extent we actually do share on these) with everyone. so then i could read up what long lost friends are up too and whats going on in everyone's mind, without actually having to have a conversation. i dont know if thats good to not have a conversation... but it makes it easier to just read blogs. it keeps me informed and most importantly, connected.

but of course. dont get too caught up in these blogs and these xangas. you gotta live to have interesting entries right? yea...cherish it.

and yea, the girl, whos name is Melissa, died because she didnt have her seatbelt on.

WEAR YOUR DAMN SEATBELT PEOPLE. especially some certain people from *coughSTLcough* *coughANGIEcoughcough* and *coughAJITcough*.

oh yea. i got the wasp of my back. i went outside and shook around...and it wouldnt come off so tyler brushed it off with a notebook. good job tyty!

in other news:

beh. beh beh beh beh beh.

tomorrow is a new day. lets hope its good.

ah crap now its on my back...

theres a pissed off wasp right in front of me...

Courtesy of Wayne

I highlighted the lines that caught my attention...hope you dont mind wayne

"Above all else, guard your heart,
for it is the wellspring of life. Proverbs 4:23

guard your heart, not because it's a prisoner, but because as the source of life, it's to be protected. proverbs says it's a "wellspring," a fountain or the source of a stream. water flows from a wellspring, giving life to all who drink from it. however, a polluted wellspring literally kills. one of the biggest and life-costing problems in the third world is contaminated water sources.

guard your heart from pollution. keep its water as pure as the snow it melted from. tend to the stream, removing branches and trash to keep it flowing smoothly. guard it with love and pride, as a dog guards his master's children.

however, don't build artificial barriers around it. streams need to pick its own route. they have a mind of their own -- they know where they're suppose to go. this freedom is especially important in the spring, as the ice and snow melts and swells the stream over its banks, which waters plants when they need the water the most. don't build walls around the stream -- deer and other wildlife need to drink from it to keep from thirst."

a ladybug flew into my face today. crazy ladybugs...

while walking to class, grungy looking man on street corner asks tyler and i for some change so he could buy himself a drink. we said no. and kept on walking.

Why?

because he was asking us for change while having a conversation on his cell phone. yes. on his nice nokia CELL PHONE.

...

daheck is up wit dat?

for some reason i just cant fall asleep at night. i go to bed around 2am and its usually 3 - 330 by the time i actually succumb to slumber.

anyone see the article about how you sleep is linked to your personality? well i have like 3 sleeping styles (maybe this is why i cant fall asleep lately, because i dont have a set pattern...) but yea. the article is here.

i used to sleep on my side with my arms around my blanket and legs around it too. that means i have a social and easygoing personality. ok so that could work. but i also do "the freefall, flat on the tummy with the hands at the sides of the head, is the most unusual position. Only 6.5 percent of people prefer it and they are usually brash and gregarious."

so im brash and gregarious sometimes? shrug. normally i end up on my back facing up..."Unassuming, good listeners usually adopt the starfish position -- on the back with outstretched arms and legs. "

so basically i have 3 positions with different meanings. meaning im one whack person. awesome.

but i still dont know how to get myself to fall asleep...maybe my queen sized sheets on a double bed or my feet hanging off the bed have something to do with my problem...

and in other news: ladybugs seem highly attracted to me. last week a lady bug joined me and took a ride on my cell phone for a few blocks. sunday the same thing, a lady bug chilling on my cell phone in my hand. and then today one flew onto my arm and i think it bit me too...and finally as i was sitting in class i noticed one crawling from my right shoulder all the way to my left shoulder.

now if that could only happen with real ladies as opposed to ladybugs.

oh and finally one more thing...tafcrush site updated.

aww yaaaayyy...happy day!

First tyler and i FINALLY got the bar to hold our toilet paper from our landlords! it only took them 3 weeks...!

and then just now, the old Friends episode with the prom video of ross rachel and monica in high school was on, and then ross and rachel kissed! awwwwwww.....makes me all warm and fuzzy inside : ) : ) : )

ahahaha...dude. this joe schmoe show? hilarious. although i feel bad for the guy...hahaha....

yo yo yo.

tafcrushed it up today! woohoo go uiuc tafcrush! better than that other school...haha yea. julie came into visit us today, and linn did friday too! yea we get visitors! because people love us more :)

we showed julie around the quad and the union and then went to Za's for pizza. and then we went to Evo for bubble tea...and evo is now like Joy Yee's. crazy right? joy-yees is that ridiculously popular and pretty good restaurant and bubble tea place in chicago chinatown and now evo is like it. Roger said something about Joy-yees franchising evo? regardless, when you walk in now they have waiters and waitresses asking if youd like a seat or if you just want boba "to go". haha yea weird. and they have those wood shelves filled with mangoes, very joy-yees-esque, and yea, the bubble tea...all fresh fruit and it was good. yaaahhhmmmyyyyy :)

pictures on the tafcrush site later. holler.

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meh. beeeh....

what do i do...advertising or boradcast journalism...broadcast journalism or advertising....

i dont want to think.

yea...

My Story

ok so I was driving down to st. louis this weekend. I was cruising along the highway at about 80mph, my usual speed, when i got this urge to pray. I looked ahead of me, no cars. I looked behind me, no cars. The highwas was straight. So...haha yea...i closed my eyes and decided to pray. Now yea you can pray with your eyes open...but meh, i didnt. So i closed my eyes. I remember thinking to myself something along the lines of "hey im going 80mph on the highway with my eyes closed, this might be stupid, but whatever! God will protect me...right?" So in essance, i was testing Him. seeing if he would protect me while i did something unreasonable.

I finished praying and then opened up my eyes. oh nut.

I was on the left shoulder of the road, headed towards the grassy highway median. I quickly veered back to the right, probably too quickly. My car veered hard right and my tires screeched. On instinct i veered back hard to the left. My car veered to the left and my tires screeched more, all while i was losing more control of the car. So i veered back to the right one more and then...my car and i did a hard 180 turn, i lost control, and i went flying in the the grassy median tail end backwards in a cloud of tire smoke and screeching. My car came to a long halt eventually. I sat there, hands on the wheel...saying "..."

I looked around and felt fine, and i was. I ended up facing the other side of the highway, and i could see some cars going slowly and some stopping to help. I threw my had out the window to signify that i was ok. I got out, stood up, and looked at my car. I saw a hubcap in the path of torn up grass and dirt that i had left, but luckily it wasnt mine. all 4 tires were ok, no flats, nothing. Everything was as ok as it could have been.

Moral of the story: Dont test God. He will mess you up. But He also protected me. I was fine. it could have been a lot worse. Later on that night when i was in st louis, i saw a couple crashes, one car flipped over on its top. That could have been me, it really could have. But it wasnt. So yea, dont close your eyes going 80mph, and dont test.

But there is more to the story. This is where it gets really interesting, and when i hear these stories in church or youth groups, i usually dont believe them all that much and take them for granted. but it happened to me.

As i was standing there, one of the cars from the other side of the highway had stopped. it was 2 guys, 2 guys you wouldnt normally think would stop and help a stranger on the highway. They were in a big Ford F400 truck, and the driver was dressed in baggy jeans, no shirt, had a shaved head and tattooed, while his friend was decked out in Hurley skater gear and earings. Stereotypically, not your stereotypical good samaritans. They asked me if i was ok and all that, and then they offered me help in pushing out my car. I didn't think i needed to, but since they obliged i said sure. I got back in the car and reveresed up the bank back onto the highway. I said thanks and they said no problem and ran off back to their car. I remember wishing i would have said more, or could have given them more gratitude for stopping and helping me. But i didnt, i was embarrassed at what i had done and wanted to be back on my way. silly me. But as the guys ran back to their car, i noticed the tattoo on the back of shirtless driver with the shaved head and baggy jeans. I saw it with my own eyes, saw what it was, but somehow it didnt register as to what the tattoo was until a day later sitting in church next to alice.

Across the top of his back, starting from the middle out to his left shoulder blade and right shoulder blade, were wings. They were two wings.

an angel? my guardian angel?

I think so.

aiyo. reading book for my asian-american studies class. its about the history of asian-americans. right now its on the beginning, when "chinamen" and other ethnicities came over to america to work, and work, and work. and the discrimination and racism and personal hardships they all faces. its sad. sad sad sad.

boo.

comments should be back up tomorrow. i will also make my blog about the car incident and the sign from above. its whack. but cool. holler.

Live From Alice and Alvin's House!

Helllooooo! whatup peeps. jonizzle here live from the Wang residence. holler. twas a good day seeing my tafers, even though i couldnt see one piece of nasal goodiness for too long...but ees ok...i will get "full" tomorrow. har har har. yes. bubble tea'd it up with alice...and oh yea! it was WHACK! it was just alice and i and like...people kept coming in to the store and STARING at us. da heezy? i think they must have seen me, 20 year old guy, with 15 year old alice who is 5 feet even (but i think less...) and looks like she is 4. haha yea....we got a lot of glances because i assume people thought we were like...together on a date or something. haha no.....

alice smells. AND she has cooties. eeeeewwwwwww....

got white castle before that, it was yahmmy, and after bubble tea we went to the Chen's house and alice and i whooped up on the boys in signal. holler.

tomorrow, tpc and lunch maybe? and then a surprise!

and i also did a 360 spin out on the highway and almost died. it was actually very traumatic... haha yea...but im ok...and i think my car is too somehow... but yea...ill tell yall more bout that later. peace out!

hmm yes. just switched from majoring in econ to majoring in Advertising and then getting a masters in Broadcast journalism. IM SCURRED! AAAHHH!!! what am i doing?? is it the right thing?!?! will i want to go back to econ?!?! aaaaahhhhhh!!!

worries:

- I didnt want to do econ because i dont want to take business stats & calc etc...this i fear might have been in the back of my mind.

- Also in the back of my mind, I think watching What Women Want and seeing mel gibson have a fun time at work makes me think advertising will be "fun". what if they made a movie about fun econ work??? would everything be different???

- Broadcast journalism....whaddafunk am i doing? well ok, i do LOVE ESPN. and i would love to work for them. so this would be close...but....but....meh. boo. haha oh man...scary!

what am i going to do with life?!?!?

heres a really random thought i had...

what if the person you eventually married was also someone you talked to online? I dont mean someone you met online, but someone you actually knew and just talked online with. After you get married, well and assuming you both still go on aim...where would you put that person on your buddy list? would you make a whole new seperate group for you and only your spouse such as "Me and My Better Half"? or would you just leave them in the same group they started out in, be it "Friends", "Girls", "Studs", "TAFers" (haha), or whatever the group is called? I mean, its your spouse right? youd think they would get special consideration on your buddy list, kinda like that Seinfeld episode where Jerry got ranked up to #1 on his girlfriends phone speed dial. but phone speed dial, thats so 90's...and were not in the 90's anymore.

but yea, would you even have them on your buddy list? i mean if you are married, youre going to be living together, and quite possibly sharing one computer, so neither of you would ever be on at the same time, so why have them on your buddy list at all? Well maybe if one is at work...but really this is all too much interesting to me and i think i might be going to deep into this...haha, but interesting nonetheless....