JONIZZLE

congrats youth staff. too bad jh staff is BETTER THAN YOU! haha oh im only half-joking. teeheehee.

Sunday, June 22nd. yea.

I guess im being strong, but i dont want to be. i want to be weak and frail and hold on. but i shouldnt. so i have to be strong. its for the best. yes? i pray that it is. i pray i dont regret this, unlike my actions...or lack thereof...3 years ago. but as they say in Rent, forget regret, for life is yours to miss. but i cant help it. im missing out on life. which is why i have to help it. which is why i have to be strong.

i ate too much at dinner. appetizer platter and a breakfast meal. one n jen didnt feel like going inside, so she called me to go get grub. brian came along. lori was working. it was a good time. the food counteracted with what i did earlier when i was "strong". yea. sure.

itll be a long road. a long journey. and it will take some times. hopefully it will work. well actually, i hope it wont. i hope there would be another way for this to all come to a conclusion. i hope id get the girl. but it doesnt seem that way.

so time to change focus and switch gears. work tomorrow, bright and early. i love my job. tac is in...uh...2 weeks...what the dilly. and hey, taf in like 6. whoa. taf in 6 weeks...

i cant wait. ill need to stay strong, at least till then.

- yaaaay! hootie & the blowfish is coming to the illinois state fair on august 15th! HOOTIE HOOTIE HOOTIE! who wants to come with???

- my toes hurt from hours of basketball.

- a couple of us guys at the Park are patching up cracks on the tennis courts. we had this cement tar stuff to fill it in, and well, it got covered my hands and was an f-ing ho to get off. I used some gritty soap...and well, it rubbed the skin off of my knuckles. it does not feel good. i also drew a tattoo "J" on my left arm, and oh man, it was SO COOL! i want a tat now, haha yea, it was sweet. i came off pretty easily though...and then the next day...it caused a rash. and my left arm was burning in pain. but i still want a tat.

- Being strong sometimes means being able to let go.

- Blah.

ahahah. eat it.

i was leaving the mall, and while i was waiting in the right turn lane, i looked back in my rear view mirror and saw that the car behind me was waiting awfully close. i didnt think much of it right away, but as i turned right he was still right behind me. didnt do anything major yet, although i did ride my breaks for awhile to see if he would continue to stay on my ass...and he did.

so as we left the next stop light, i pondered what i should do: speed up and see if he still rides me and then slam on my breaks? or just go 40mph in a 55mph zone? i chose the latter. and it was a success! as i drove along slowly, i could see him raising his arms in the air saying something like "c'mon!" in my rearview windown. He was getting frustrated and it was good to see. he was swerving back and forth in the lane....and luckily the other lane to my right had a slow van leading the way! we sandwhiched that mofo in there! eventually, he was able to get in the other lane 2 cars back...and then i sped up to piss him off. AND IT WORKED. i went to turn left but i had slowed down again to see if he would do something as he passed me. oh and it was fantastic! he rolled his window down...stuck his arm out the window and waved it around...and yelled something at me! i laughed. he was pissed. served him right for tailgating me. hahaha.

i only wish i would have done a cheerful "honk honk" as he passed me. that would have been the icing on the cake : )

in other news...i talked with haley liss on the phone for 22 minutes. random...?

some new blogs:

Catdogg
Kelly
CaliKaren Updated
Pauline - moving to xanga. aww man...i need the mad aim smiley now here...

haha uh...

so in my fantasy baseball prospect draft tonight, someone picked this guy named Merkin Valdez from the SF Giants.

according to dictionary.com,

mer·kin (mûrkn)
n.
A pubic wig for women.

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a pubic wig??? Why does a woman need a pubic wig??? .... ??? ... ???

um...ok so im at the computer here at work, and i was looking at my blog...and in my may 29th entry, i have the word "boyfriend" in it...and somehow it was linked....to a dating website....!!! WHAT?!?! how does my blog automatically get linked like that???? does anyone else see the link???

so i threw some pictures of mine up online so i can access them at work and print them out there using manny's super printer, and hey, i might as well give y'all the links eh?

matt tyler and julie overlooking the stadium at Mizzou...from julies dorm...
whitney & whitney
a really cool picture of the Arch
Julie & Shannon
Meeee! in a cool black and white.

theyre all big though, so yea, it might take awhile to load, hehe. make them your desktop! yea! especially the one of the Arch. its pimp.

so...

i was working tonight at the ice cream place. its a friday night, so the kiddies are out and about at the mall. 2 girls, who were at most 14 years old, walk up. one of them looks at ice cream, and the other asks me "will you give us a discount since we are hot?" ............................... are you kidding me???? kids....oy. needless to say, i didnt give them a discount.

hehe oh yes. so i was talking to emily vereen the other night. awhile back, she was looking at my glamour shots online and she showed her friends/roommates them too. they were highly amused, and apparently emily didnt want to tell them she knew me. hahaha. soooo, her friends thought my pictures were funny enough to send to other people...so...my glamour shots were making there way around the campus of Iowa State. ahahaha, im proud.

her roommates also wanted to print them out and put them up in their shower...but emily didnt want to see jon lee while she was showering. her boyfriend also did not like the idea either. ahahahahaha. i wonder how many people have seen my glamour shots...

dah crap. im going to have to start planning my high school reunion in like...3 years...

yo, heres my paper about why taiwan should be independent. Made in Taiwan

yeas. i didnt have to work today, and i was therefore bored out of my mid this afternoon (after a nice nap). yea...

played a hackey sack game called kill today. it was fun. brian and steve play a lot at u of i, and well...yea i want to play again tomorrow.

tonight, went over to julie ashenfelters. tkast was there too. we hung out...until i left to go to ashlees to hang out. hehe. sam, linz, matt, nicho, and jen. we watched 2 weeks notice. i like hugh grant. i want to go to england for awhile and pick up the accent. that would be so coo

forizzle. gameplan for tomorrow....sleep, hackeysack, and probably help close at the ice cream store. oh and order a chicken fetuccini pizza from papa johns. oh its goooood.

seriously, youd think wed be able to grow up and not spend the night making fun of each other right? youd think so.

woot. 4.0 for the whole year. haha...im amsued that i started getting straight a's in college, supposedly my "toughest" years....

tomorrow is a pizzacked day....baseball @ 2, and then pleasant plains graduation @ 7, and then pleasant plains graduation parties afterwards. yea! good times and good (free) food! i love graduation time, its mm mm good.

and looking back on pictures of a few weeks ago...what the f took me so long to cut my hair.....

saw the matrix last night. it was good. good action, deep plot...although WAY TOO CONFUSING at some points. haha i just gave up trying to even understand during one scene. dupid. last night was actually action packed. well i got off work at 4, went to the mall with susan and ajit, got brian a matching headband-wristband set for his birthday (although its been a week...haha sorry brian), then went home for like an hour to shower and eat and talk TAF. woot woot!

then off to the shs-shg baseball game at lanphier with brian jake and ajit. met up with zkilla, tilldo, meagan, brett, brandon, missy, mindy,and brittany. haha jake and i were the loudest ones. before shs was about to score in one inning, i yelled "Awww shucks!" and then jake followed with the "You got the Solons fired up!" chant...and all of the students looked back at us. haha. go shs alumni! there were omre of us at the game then students almost...haha. but yea that was cool. and then of course shs scored. we had to leave though because ajit and brian were cold...but shs ended up winning in extra innings. piiimp. "say what!"

hehe yes. so yea then off to ajits to hang out, then out to the centennial park hill to watch the lunar eclipse. hurrah, good times....although it was ridiculously windy and chilly....and finally, off to the matrix. and the rest is history....

um...in case i wasnt clear...adrienne is not pregnant. she just has a book....haha good job beth. profile!

oh yea, while i was looking at adriennes baby name book...i saw Taiwan as a name for a boy. right....

shaolin soccer is coming to theatres in the states! unfortunately though, its going to be cut down and the name might be changed to "Kung Fu Soccer", and it will be dubbed. thats crappy.

sisters graduation today. and as usual arguing with mom in car. woot woot for fun like that.

the past 2 days have been hardcore moving. moved most of my crap from siue back home yesterday. got up around 1030-11 and didnt stop cleaning till 4. yea...we barely made our checkout time. and then today helped cheryl move. forearms is sore from carrying cinderblocks. those be some heavy mofos...

and then tonight...i went to prom!!! haha yeeess. matt jake and i went to see traci on court. woot woot for traci, looking might fine. kimmy kolhauser was queen. saw a lot of people, pictures pictures....oh yea! clayton, the youngest member of the ocelot onslaught...is going to THE University of Florida to be their placekicker in football!!!! AAAAAAAHHHH!!!! BIG TIME D-1 FOOTBALL for a big time school!!!!! ahahahaha. yeeeessss. go clayton, i had no idea. peter christofalikis aint got nuthing on you boyeeeee. yes. that is so cool.

and then....we got kicked out of prom. ridiculous. i guess we were told when we went in that we had to leave after court...but none of us heard. i guess the new principal is a jag, no mr flamini he is. but yea, the funny this is that i was told to leave by the evil asst principal mr. williams...while talking to mr. lightfoot...a teacher! i wasnt picking up any 17 year old girls! I WAS TALKING TO A TEACHER I KNOW! and matt was talking to Officer Dahlkamp, who he knew! and they still wanted us out even though we must be ok if we are chatting it up with a TEACHER and the SCHOOL's POLICE OFFICER! do i look like i have bad intentions or something?!!?!? first the whole ordeal with the police about that wood chair at SIUE, and now i get kicked out of visiting people at prom. the bad kids dont even bother coming back to prom! only the good kids do! baaaah. pisses me off. although before all of this, jake took a cookie....which i guess he wasnt supposed to eat....but i dont think thats reason for kicking us out....

went to adriennes. got some good baby names. adrienne is going to name her child mukhtar...or mucktar as she wants to spell it. crazyface adrienne. mwahahahaha. but she was wearing a cubs shirt...so shes good. hehe the power went out for awhile too, therefore i was able to take cool pictures with candles. shazam.

ah yes. so my sophomore year of college is over. what a quick year. academically, i did great. got straight a's for the first time in my life fall semester, and i might have done it again this semester. haha i got an A in interpersonal comm by ONE point. my percentage turned out to be 89.8%...and its getting rounded up. yea baby! whew. thank da Lord. forreal though. despite complaints about this school, i had a great time here. as usual, it turns out that not where but who youre with that really matters. yay for all the friends i made while here. i'll miss the nightly random visits to the girls. i'll miss the young lifers...even though ill see them the rest of the month. and kari da shiznit at u of i next year. w00000t. and ajit...well i will see you at home. but yea. sad times, hah.

two years ago when i ended up coming here after gettin rejected from the school i will be attending next fall, i wasnt too happy. i mean i wasnt like mad, but i knew in my mind i wasnt going to stay here. i helped ease thoughts by saying this was the path i was to take, that this was God's course for me, and that it was all for the best. and it was all probably was for the best. somehow ive been able to find the motivation to apply myself and get 4.0's, which i never did in high school. of course i made great friends here too, good and deep ones. and most of the people live in springfield too...so thats even better. haha yea....

i dont know if i wish that i would have been more outgoing and social while i was here. i dont think it matters. im leaving in two days and im very very satisfied with what i have done with my time here at SIUE. well...SIUE doesnt matter. I should say im very satisfied with what i have done with my time with the friends ive made. hannah beth susan marci jessica ashley abby (all girls....interesting), ill miss them the most...... tyler ajit and matt dont really count, since i hang out with y'all all the time at home. hehhe. hmmm....when i reflect back on high school, i sometimes wish i would have had less friends but more stronger relationships, instead of knowing everyone and having just a few strong relationships ya know? (andrea does). i dont think i realized i was doing what i wished to do here until just now. well thats pretty neat.

most definitly nothin but love for the girls of 513 1A. the entire law can be summed up in a single command; 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' Galatians 5:14. yaaaay for my neighbors, i love them. im gonna miss sitting in those old stinky comfortable couches, riling hannah and beth up by laughing at them, or being freaked out by jessicas random noises and being amused by marci's accent. awww, good times :)

hahaha...tomatoes and tomahawks! and that evil atom bomb! cuh cuh cuh!

i hope young life has been fun and made an impact on the eville students. i hope beth and susan and lauren can keep it going next year. i hope and pray.

jason silvey, lisa keys, and kevin mcleary might be 3 of the coolest teachers ill ever have.

no more TPC for awhile :(. ill be far far away. my only tafers that have lived close to where i live...sad. well at least we got 1 year together. hehe...

yea....good times. im taking down all of my pictures tomorrow. i have 32 pictures in frames on my walls in my room. 32. i have 25 more that i have taped to the wall. wow. i need to get some more printer ink...8x10's of your friends and family are the best wallpaper anyone could ever have. tomorrow morning will be the last time i wake up to all of those pictures here at siue. that really makes me sad.

I leave here with 2 years of fun memories and great times. well...its time to look forward. 3months and a few weeks of what i hope to be endless fun await. TAC and TAF are on my mind, along with the possibility of young life camp and a summer class! oh and working at the tennis center again. and hopefully not the ice cream place...::shakes head::...goo. yea. i need to go to bed. night yall. i hope you enjoyed my most eloquent reminiscence and relfection of the past. ahhhhh!!!