JONIZZLE

For any of you who watched The O.C. tonight, let me just say I called it that the red-haired lady was Lindsay's mom a full 45 minutes before they revealed it. Yea, I'm THAT good.

Maybe my idealism turns me into an island. I ponder if it would be better to be more of a realist in this realist world. But that doesn't seem like fun. There's got to be more to life than this right? Idealism is what keeps hopes and dreams of greater times alive. Perhaps. But then disappointment (usually) follows. Oh what a rusty cycle it is.

- The Cubbies resigned Nomah!
- This picture of the Cardinals Jim Edmonds was discovered:

Puahahaha.

No man can be an island. But at least im having turkey this weekend. AND cornbread.

At the end of the day, I like to know that if anything, I at least have my integrity. That's something I live my daily life by. Now, I don't want to impose my beliefs on anyone else, but I'd like to see some people living that way too.

Integrity. As a man, or a woman, it's what we should strive to attain, and never lose.

It was a great week in poker for the B-Roy, Evil, and Jonizzle. Evil made a couple G, I made two final tables back to back, and B-Roy up to his usual multi-thousand dollar week.

Tomorrow, I buy me an 40gig iPod. We be Ballers yo.

Oh man oh man! Did Illinois crush Wake Forest tonight or what? We're a good team, and we can go tres far. You better join the Illinois basketball bandwagon and buy an Illinois shirt. Like a certain tafCrush shirt...

taf2005 is about Identity. Fittingly, I'm currently in a state of trying to refind or redefine my own right now (I feel kind of lost or lacking direction). We'll see how it goes.

Tomorrow is a busy day. Photolab all day, TASC presentation on Taiwanese Religion and History with speaker Murray Rubenstein at 5, and then the Pi Phi Semi-formal with the lovely Erika at 9ish.

I've been going to bed before 2am this whole week. The trend must continue!

I <3 clementines.
I <3 whole turkeys bought the week after Thanksgiving for 40% off.

A great road trip it was. Pictures will be up. I loved spending all those days in Connecticut with dear friends. But I do miss home. I miss Adrienne and Traci :( And I miss others that knew me when I was growing up. Apparently we are grown up now too. I hear everyone and their mother was out and about Wednesday night in downtown Springfield. Imagine that. I even daresay I miss my mom a little. I have no idea how to deal with that.

Random note though, we could all grow up a little. All of us.

Arrived back in Urbana-Champaign today after a 15 hour trek from CT with Roger. I did double-digit driving time duty. Ten hours baby. Only one near death experience, and no speeding tickets.

I was lucky enough to catch Home Alone on tv today. It got me all up in the Christmas season spirit. I need recommendations for the Christmas CD I'm making.

'Tis the season!

Live from Connecticut, have a very merry Thanksgiving!

I bought and watched Elf tonight. I think I just might love this movie. It's the closest I've come to crying (because the ending is so happily cheesy) in a movie since the one time I did (the movie was Newsies and I was five, calm it down).

Regardless of the Christmas cheer, it's a smart story that builds on itself and I have a huge crush on the girl Jovy. But, there's also that whole Christmas shouldn't be about presents and Santa thing. I still heart the movie though.

tafCrush East Coast Road Trip 2004 on Friday. I think I'm sick. My hands and feet have been getting sharp pains (due to bad circulation?) for the past three days and I feel fatigued a lot. That can't be good.

A new 100% cotton tafCrush baseball tee should be on your Christmas wishlist, I know it's on mine! Love is on my wishlist too. Yup, I'm a cheezeball.

The ITASA Leadership retreat this weekend up in Chicago was an enjoyable time with my Taiwanese and (3) Korean people.

Tina, Justin, and Grace ay Joy-Yee's. Grand bubble tea.


One massive Pho bowl. Tina and Dave representin' the year of the Rat.


The glow of Chinatown at night.


The glow of the whole city at night. You can't really tell, but its Justin, Roger, Dave, Grace, & Tina.


Fun at Millenium Park. Lee is like an angel.


Nancy giving a rousing motivational speech the next day. EHHHMIIEEEEE.


Bryan, Kelly, and I must say, I've never been more attracted to Jessica EVER.


Jeanette, Erin, Jessica.


What? Karen Chien? What da heck is she doing here...

Missing: Carolyn, Justin Chang, Elliot, Eugene, probably some more.

But here is the picture of the day. Presenting your 2004 University of Illinois Intramural Flag Football Champions, the TAMPAX Run Stoppers!


Undefeated baby.

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So yea, Chicago. The last time I was there for a weekend was more than a year ago. And it was a devilishly great time, but alas, it was brief. Maybe I'll look back on this weekend similarly, but let's hope the post-trip turns out differently.

Oooh, I'm ambiguous :)

The Tampax Runstoppers: 16
No Smegma: 0

That's right, a SHUTOUT in the U of I Co-Rec Championship Game. Woooooo!!! 2004 Intramural Champions baby! The losers talked trash too. But hey, I'll be honest, we talk more, but more cleverly. Oh and we back it up too, puaha.

Yay, I get a championship shirt! Pictures up later.

And foreal, SO cold tonight.

Here's the design:


Don't forget the orange long sleeves. If you are now enticed, read the info in the earlier post.

Championship game in 4 hours.

Yea! The Tampax Run Stoppers heading into the University of Illinois CHAMPIONSHIP GAME tomorrow night.

Oh boy oh boy oh BOY.

Well this is just too darn rootin' tootin' cute.

I mean seriously. Two Guys a Girl and a Pizza Place MIGHT be better than Friends and the OC combined. Well maybe not, but it's darn good.

I wonder...I wonder if there is always at least one person wearing a TAF shirt somewhere around the world...

Aren't I deep?

Oh yea, new tafCrush shirts are coming out.

Long sleeve baseball shirts, white body, Illini Orange sleeves. 3/4 length.

Sizes Youth XL to Adult XL.

Cost = $10

Email orders to jonizzle@gmail.com with name, size, amount, and shipping address. Throw in an extra dollar or 2 if you want it mailed to you, or just wait until I visit your area. But I've cut down on roadtripping, so that might take a long time. You can also just leave a comment, but please email me your shipping info if you dont want to post your address online.

"tafCrush" in the cursive baseball font, like this years staff shirt.

"Made in Taiwan, Bottled at Illinois", or something to that effect, underneath. Or "Available only at Illinois, with Natural Taiwanese flava." I like that one too. Or maybe a combination: "Bottled at Illinois, with Natural Taiwanese Flava." Yea, I like that.

I'll have a picture up of it next week. BUT I NEED THE ORDERS ASAP! This weekend preferably. And tell all your friends who dont read my blog/xanga.

yay taf :)

My address to mail check or money to is:
701 S Gregory #212
Urbana, IL 61801

Beh neh neh neh neh, beh neh neh neh neh...

california...

whee. the oc is back!

My mom got a new cat today. She called me and asked me what to name it. After a few other random suggestions like "Jonizzle" (she can't pronounce it), I suggested "Cat". Then she said, "Do you have a brain???"

Yea, that's my mom. Oh, she called me earlier today to rub in Bush's victory too.

YEA!

Who's excited for four more years of the majority of the rest of the world to hate America and Christianity! YEA YEA YEA!

Wait...I'm not. Sigh. Well let's hope this is for the best.

And apparently...I'm "anti-life" since I voted for Kerry. Ok people, ok...

Hmm. It's weird knowing that the path that the world goes on for the next four years will be decided in one day by us. It's either going to stay the same or change, but either way, there a lot on the line, and it'll all be different.

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Cuz it's all in my head, I think about it over and over again, I replay it over and over again, and I can't take it, I can't shake it.

Busy busy weekend.

Friday - TASC had a volunteering shindig in Urbana to play games with kids/give them lots of candy. The sponsors of the event encouraged us to dress up in our costumes. This was the debut of my awesome creation:

Yes. I was Foellinger Auditorium (the building on the right) for Halloween. Puahah.

People liked my costume. Some little kid kept punching me though, I was about to slap him (he was really getting on my nerves), but I...managed not to. A lot of kids were nice and cute though, whee. And then other people kept poking me through the doors of Foellinger that I had cut out of the box...

Saturday - the kids came. We took them to Evo for boba and ran into Michelle Ng visiting from Iowa.



Jess, Michelle, Me, Ryan, and Alice. My former campers from Hongee-Tao and B5 :)


All the tafers at Praise Night, too many to name.


Praise Night was good. I think I liked Spring 04's better, but it continues to impress me. I left everyone to go join my other friends and to form our Quad at Elizabeth's Halloween party.



Me, Steve (Gregory Hall), Brian (Lincoln Hall), and Eek (the Union). Look, no cup in my hands.


Tyler as a dragon. As we walked down the street, everyone laughed and liked our boxes. We were quite popular and funny.


No offense Bryan, but I told Alice I think her and Ryan would be really cute. haha, oh man. TOO cute.


Speaking of my cute daughter Alice, this...is a face she did multiple times this weekend.


Sunday - Breakfast at IHOP before they left. Look Alex, your girlfriend is glowing.


And tonight, Jess Sun was still here, so we went to Mandarin Wok. Today was the last day for the previous owners, they sold it to a new family since they're getting old. It is a very sad day, and it's a sign of how good your restaurant is if people are genuinely sad to see you leave. But I am happy for them. I'm sure they made an amazing amount of loot and can now rest. We'll miss you :(


Thanks to Jeremy, Alice, Eric, Tim, Ryan, Michael, Jess, Julie, and Michelle for coming in for the weekend. I slept till 430pm after they left, I went to dinner, went to a TASC meeting, and then came back and slept more. Therefore, I slept most of the day and I am not going to bed tonight.



And tonight, I was sad. I'm missing something.

Halloween this weekend. Look forward to pictures of me in my costume. I'm going to be wearing a box.

And prepare yourself for an attack of the killer St. Louis kids. They're comin to get me!

Hurrah Huzzah, congratulations Boston.

As a true Cubs fan, I rooted for you.

1) We share similar history (and misery).
2) I won't cheer for the Cardinals (unless the Cubs need them to beat someone).
3) I know WAY too many Cardinals fans, and I don't want to hear them gloat.

I remember a long time ago I thought to myself that Boston would win this year, and the Cubs next year. Well 50% of that came true...let's see how it goes next year.

Cubbies in '05! (knock on wood)

I went to Hardy's Reindeer Ranch yesterday with APAC and we got to play in a giant corn maze. It was muddy and a lot of fun, but what was even more fun was taking pictures with the country/farm atmosphere. As a central Illinois boy, it's something I love.

The whole group. APAC officers plus reps from 6 other AA orgs, like me and Jnet for TASC.


And Jnet seems embarassed to be with me...


Jnet, Me, and Tina sittin' on a rock, surrounded by trees, hay, and pumpkins. Classic.


The 10-acre maze we went through. "Cornfusion 2004". har har. And me, Tina, and a nice tall corn stalk thing.


Bunnies Bunnies Bunnies!!! And a doggie! The doggie kept coming to play with us, and he even ran in the maze with us and led the way for a little but. AWWWW!


I think we look alike.


JUMP!


Rockin' out with Tina on some rockin' chairs. har har. Ah yes. I now want a farm and to sit out on the porch in a rocking chair...


...and take in my farm and all the nature around it. I wanna live where the green grass grows and watch my corn pop up in rows.


Ah yes. Travel the world, make a movie about 228, and then own a farm ranch and watch sunsets from my front porch with my lady, whoever she may be. That is the dream.

I watched Serendipity last night too. It's all about fate and destiny and the signs we see. In the movie the guy is named Jonathan (a sign!) and the girl is named Sara Thomas (another sign!). I know a Sara Thomas. So I'm going to interpret it that my soulmate is some girl I already know. Puahaha. That's right, I'm going to marry you.

I'm using a left-handed mouse right now, and let me tell you. It's WEIRD. I can't function at maximum capacity! My left hand is cramping up!

Last night:

Tampax Runstoppers - 33
the other team (with an annoying qb...) - 0

YEE-EEAA! Another undefeated regular season. For the season, we outscored our opponents 129 - 13. And those 13 (lucky) points all came in our first game of the season. We were rusty, you know.

Playoffs in 2 weeks, looking to win it all this year after making it to the Final Four last year. But also, even if we lose, we've officially be invited to play in the state tournament. Hoo-AH!

Ocelot Onslaught men's flag football Monday.

One thing that struck me as beautiful the other day:

I was sitting in the RSO Office with Jnet and I looked over and saw a girl of Islamic heritage with a traditional head scarf on. She was also wearing an adidas track jacket, emblazoned with the USA flag and a USA logo, making it look like something a US Olympian would wear.

Looking at the girl, I realized she is a living representation of what the word "America" means and stands for.

It was a touching moment. And Jnet said I was poetic to boot.

I think its REALLY weird that a few hours after I finish reading Angels & Demons, this news story breaks. That's like...dead on fiction turning into reality. If this was xanga, I'd insert the face with the big bulging eyes right now.

slickdeals.net is my new best friend. Simpsons/24/Futurama/more! Season One DVD's on sale for $15! $750 off Dell Laptops (expired)! Alex and John bought one each. Justin was going to, but unfortunately he woke up too late. Mike Weng was...but he too was late. Crazy Dell upping those expiration times. BUT the best of all, is free! MyPublisher.com is an online photoalbum maker, and they have free shipping right now and a $20 off coupon, so you can custom order a 20 page (up to 80 pictures) hardcover album for...free! The coupon code when you by it is REFB777. I made an album for TAF tonight. Tomorrow, Taiwan!

- Must sleep at correct times
- Must eat well
- Must exercise
- Must keep learning guitar
- Must figure out Europe
- Must do homework (if I can't get a 4.0 with only a 9-hour credit hours, I should shoot myself)

That's a lot of musts ::Insert bug-eyed xanga smiley again>::.

I was going to post this up myself, but Margaret makes it all the much easier for me:

months ago, the bush administration announced the capture of saddam hussein at a very politically convenient time, giving them just them the boost in public opinion they needed. it looks like the bush administration has been holding on to osama bin laden for yet another politically convenient time when they need a boost -- right before the election.

i will be so so pissed off if a stunt like this will swing voters and win bush jr. the election.

http://www.el-mundo.es/cronica/2004/469/1097487207.html (original in spanish language newspaper)
http://www.informationclearinghouse.info/article7077.htm (translated into english)

in case you doubt the reputation of el mundo, please read the following:
http://www.il.proquest.com/division/pr/04/20040618.shtml

what will china want for handing over osama bin laden? (maybe taiwan?)

True? Maybe. Interesting and plausable? I think so.

Angels & Demons is good.
My Two Friends (Young's band) - Oceans is really good. Gonna be big some day my friend.

Roger added.
Julie re-added.

Grant out in SF. Timmy down in CU. Those Chicago working men be running amok.

Roger, Timmy, Alex, Me, Justin, Grace Ding, and Fu.

Y'all remember Grace Ding from 2001? She was one of the infamous curfew-breakers that were caught on video surveillance. Puaha. It was her first time hanging out with tafCrush. Shes a freshie too. And we're gonna take her mandarin wok-ing tomm.

Wengaroni coming in tomm too.

sending my taflove all the way out to the west coast.

p.s. "CU" stands for Champaign-Urbana.

Attention everyone:

I dropped my English class today kids. And that means this semester I only have...

...

9 credit hours.

Yes. College. I rule at this.

With all this free time, you'd think I would be able to do more homework. But no no, do not despair, Jon Lee still manages to dedicate his time to other things, and do his homework after midnight.

...

School. I suck at this game.

Meh. I'd like to forget parts of this day, but I shouldn't.

Racism and ignorance. It's a kick in the gut and a slap in the face.

It's even worse when it comes from people you call friends. Good friends.

Yea, it's been nearly 12 hours since, and I'm still madly pissed. It was a joke maybe, but a terrible one. Honestly, I don't think I've been this hurt or pissed in a long time. Although sadly, its happened before 18 months ago, from another friend.

On the bright side, I helped me think of activities for TAF. Yes, I think about TAF. And what does TAF stand for?

Taiwanese American Foundation.

Notice the American, bitch. Yea, I said bitch. And you should have heard the f-bombs I was dropping earlier too. If you know me, you know I don't say those words often. That's a sure sign I'm mad.

To any of my friends or any people I know or don't know who might think otherwise, I might not be white, but I sure as hell am an American. I've been one since the day I was born, and I will continue to be one until the day I die.

Welly Yang was awesome:

Most of the TASC officers with Welly (taken with my new camera!)


So yea, his session was really good, he can REALLY sing, and there was a good Q&A session. I talked to him about TAF for a bit, and he told me he was the one who brought Bernice to TAF. THANK GOD he did that. Haha. But yea, good for him, bringing an Asian/Taiwanese presence into broadway and television and representing and trying to make a difference with his production company. And for being talented.

Along the same lines, Young's band's song Oceans is really good. It's one of my best new listens in a long while. Us TAFers...so good at life. Haha.

1) Adrienne is visiting!
2) I watched Friday Night Lights and I liked it. I read the book though, so I think that helped.
3) I am going to buy this tomorrow:

4) And I am going to this afterwards:




And by the way, he IS a TAFer (85-88ish). So I guess it's a TAF visit!

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!

(7:25:20 PM): haha oh yes
(7:25:23 PM): in personal comm
(7:25:31 PM): we had to write about one person that has been influential in our lives
(7:25:33 PM): and i wrote about you
(7:25:34 PM): :-D

Thank you for making my day :)

Well I guess my day was made again because of flag football tonight.

Tampax Runstoppers: 29
The other team: 0

Puahaha. We rock it really hard. AND THEN, we got to play again for fun! One team didnt show up to play, so the other team they were supposed to play asked us if we wanted to.

And we did, and we beat them 34-3. Ah yes. Tampax Runstopper football.

Oh, and a quote just heard on Elimidate, "How does he not like me? I'm the best human ever!" Right...

I am sore. Goodnight!

Another night, another thousands of dollars for B-Roy.



You know I'm his coach kids, so if you want to learn, I only charge 35% of your winnings.

I like Nick Lachey. He puts up with A LOT. And he does a lot of his work on his own (moving in furniture, trying to plant a lawn) even though he has a ton of money. I respect that. Me on the other hand, I give Roger $5 to park my car a quarter-mile away because I have a few hundred from poker. The more money I get, the more money Roger gets. I guess it works out for both.

I was highly amused at Mr. Lachey for being sad watching his Cincinnati Bearcats get CRUSHED to the ILLINOIS FIGHTING ILLINI in last years March Madness.

Mid-term week here at school...not so bad when youre only taking 12 credit hours, but busy nonetheless.

Go get Something Corporate - Konstantine.

- I really REALLY love all of my JH campers. You all need to IM me and tell me what youre doing. It would make me immensely happy. like THIIIIIIISSSS happy. Yea, its good for my soul.

- Can anyone explain what Laguna Beach is? Is it like a high school Real World or a scripted show?

- Its getting cooold outside! I enjoy it now, but I wont in a few weeks.

- EuropeEuropeEurope!

- I saw an Apple desktop computer tonight, and I was like whoa. It had a really big monitor and I was actually mesmerized by the Pictures Screensaver. It would fade in and out and zoom in and out of pictures, which was a really classy effect. I initially wanted to buy an Apple just for that, but I came home and found a PC version of the screesaver here, and so all I need now is a big monitor. I dont need an Apple. Puaha.

- I've pretty much listened to this song for a whole year, usually before I go to sleep. It's crazy that I've actually listened to it roughly 365 times, because its nearly 10 minutes long, so that means I've spent 3,650 minutes listening to it, which translates into about 60 hours, or almost THREE FULL DAYS. Here are the lyrics:

I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand all the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big dreams
It's always you
In my big dreams

And you tell me that it's over
Wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover
And your restless, and I'm naked
You've gotta get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
No
Could you let me go?
I didn't think so

And you don't wanna be here in the future
So you say the present's just a pleasent interruption to the past
And you don't wanna look much closer
Cuz your afraid to find out all this hope
You had sent into the sky by now had crashed
And it did
Because of me

And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone
And I'm sleeping in your living room
We don't have much room to live

I had these dreams that I learned to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rock star
And there was hope in me that I could take you there
But dammit you're so young
Well I don't think i care
And if I hurt you
Then I'm sorry
Please don't think that this was easy

Then you bring me home
Cuz we both know what it's like to be alone
And I'm dreaming in your living room
We don't have much room to live

And Konstantine is walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear
And I was thinking
What I was thinking
We've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere

My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do is touch her long blonde hair
And I've been thinking
It hurts me thinking that these nights
When we were drinking no they never got us anywhere
No

This is because I can spell konfusion with a k
And I like it
It's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it
It's to Jimmy Eat World and those nights in my car
When the first star you see may not be a star
I'm not your star
Isn't that what you said
What you thought this song meant

And if this is what it takes
Just to lie in my mistakes
And live with what i did to you
And all the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock
It's 11:11
And now you want to talk
It's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine

Konstantine, they'll never hurt you like I do
No they'll never hurt you like I do
No, no, no no no no no no

This is to a girl who got into my head
With all the pretty things she did
Hey
You know
You keep me up in bed
This is to a girl who got into my head
With all the f*cked up things I did
Hey
Maybe
Baby
You could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine
Spin round me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
I miss you

And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep, but this time, not alone, no no
And you'll kiss me in your living room
I know
You'll miss me in your living room
Cuz these nights I think maybe that I'll miss you in my living room
We don't have much room
I said does anybody need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live

My Konstantine


I doubt anyone read all that, but I felt like posting the lyrics anyways since it's what, in my mind, a song should be. And its BEAUTIFUL. Something Corporate - Konstantine. This is the millionth time I've mentioned it, so if you haven't, you really should get it. It is quite the depressing song, although in my case, it can remind me of happier times. But it still mellows me out low. Maybe I should you know, stop listening, and let go of a little bit of it all, all that I think and feel. Maybe...sigh.

I don't like letting go.

Im going to sit and watch my screensaver now.

I like the weekend nights, because that means we cook. And we cook good.

Grace, Tina, Roger, and Albert


With all of our food, Americana-style. Sloppy joes, mashed potatoes (from scratch!), mac n cheese with hot dogs, grilled cheese, cheese and sausage and crackers, and then some Taiwanese veggies and soup. Mmm Mmm Mmm.

Oh and french silk pie for dessert. I am too lucky.

I love intramural flag football.

Game 1: Co-Rec league
Tampax Runstoppers 37
Other Team 13

Our girls are GOOD yo. I mean really. We got two new ridiculously amazing soccer girls, one who is an All-American and she was the last player cut for the US Women's National Team. Like, whoa x 20. She made a leaping catch first of all, AND THEN juked out a girl and a guy and tightroped into the endzone along the sideline. The refs, and us guys, were speechless.

Maybe we will see Peggy's Rice Paddies at Nationals.

And yea, I was so giddy to play that I couldnt do any work starting at like 530, and i left for the fields at 7. the game was at 8.

Next up is mens flag football monday night. im so excited.

My vote is going to John Kerry.

You can ask me why if you want.